Circumstance.
If the circumstances were different, then the outcomes would be as well.
But they’re not, and oftentimes that’s something we have to accept. The systems in place aren’t something imposed, well, in some ways they are. But, that is also a viewpoint. In many ways, the systems are the rules of the ways in which we can engage with the world and see tangible outcomes. And sometimes, the outcomes we find are less than desirable.
Especially when you love something. I think a majority of our plights come with this disconnect between our inner worlds, or inner desires, and what is there in actuality. You know, the more a person can accept what is there before them, the more change and effect they can have, in essence. And perhaps I’m not the best player at times, but I’m a pretty damn good coach. Even for myself.
I’ve been battling a bit with what is often perceived as negativity. But even forest fires serve a purpose in the ecosystem. You know? I think that’s something that is overlooked so often in neurology and psychology. A well timed fire, can cause an ecosystem to flourish. And instead of turning tail and running from these things, or discouraging them in the people we love, we can hold space. And accept the tide as it is, helping it to be better, but not necessarily discouraging it.
As a natural process, people and things fluctuate, and to only exist on one end of things, is to invite stagnation.
So, yes, I have been struggling. But no. That is not a reflection of all that I am. I am all of it. The positive, the negative, the in between. I am the artist, and I wield what was born as a pen, and dramatized into a wand.
With it, I create worlds, I create words, and moments, and videos, and things for people to live within. But also to find themselves. I turn down worldly pleasures at times, I am not perfect, in pursuit of what I do... Of what I believe in.
And if I can live my whole life, and create something that helps someone. Then my life would have been a success. And maybe that belief causes my own struggles, but maybe it also liberates me.
This is all heavy philosophical ramblings, but as a person who often feels misunderstood, these pages are often the only place where I find solace. In a world that I don’t seem to quite fit into, at least I can create my own.
Stay warm out there,
dc
