Non-Entity.

People will measure themselves endlessly. Their height. Their weight. Their accomplishments. How much money they make.

These are all measurements given certain value in society. And I think that I don’t care. I don’t care about these things. I care that I did things in the right way, the best I know how. Those pictures I sold you for cheap? I spent years studying the way to make them exactly as they are. Hours pondering how to approach you, and create an environment where we both felt safe. The accolades I lack? Lack of schooling? Equipment? Money? Lack of recognition? I believe that by continuing on, I am saying something about myself. About my tenacity, in the face of a world full of people who will judge me. Who will cheat on me. Who will measure me lowly, even though I stand tall. Who will curse my skin, and judge my personality.

In life, it is not the most worthy, or the most decorated who continue to succeed. It is the people willing to strike out. The people who don’t let the fear of falling, stop them from learning how to fly.

High trees will catch the most wind, and unless you are willing to rise above, not only in the things you do, but in the way you are, then you will live a safe life.

I fear that what I have become is not what I want to be. I failed the people I care most about.

We will begin a journey. We will be unafraid. We will carve a new path, and leave things behind for people yet to come. We will remain diligent. Focused. We will maintain integrity, though we are surrounded by debauchery. We will do what is right, even though it is hard. We will make something of ourselves, even if it is only to ourselves. Because when I go beyond, nobody will be there with me.

I have been charged with a different life. I have been charged with a responsibility. Cursed with a dark past. High hurdles to overcome. A mind that is endlessly curious, and is yet to find resonance. I will persevere. I will make a difference. I will never cease becoming. And I will do my best. That is all we can ask for.

I write to you in earnest, with all the broken pieces of my heart.
Do not do unto the world, as the world has done unto you.
Change it for the better.
And never forget your own unique value. Do not conform and fit into the box in which others would be more comfortable for you to be in. Be yourself. Believe in yourself.

As always,
Stay warm.

dc